Sunday, December 17, 2017

Been a quite long time.

Yep, been 'lost' for a while, so am unable to write some stuff here, due to my daily job, my new life, and things to do in the real world. So, this is just a "come by". I think, I just need to make some commitment or promise to write more. Since it's gonna be the last year for 2017 and we're gonna face 2018. You know what I mean, new year, new resolution, new life, and bla bla bla.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Good Quote

Well, today like literally about an hour ago, I just had a conversation with my friend via Whatsapp. Basically it was a usual conversation about job's life. But there's an interesting quote he said to me today. (He wrote it in Indonesian, so let me translate it in English and put it as meme.)

It needs 2-3 seconds for me to "WTH! SO DAMN TRUE!" and sometimes it feels like the quote just hit me right in my forehead. Yeah, sometimes we're tend to easily whining about our "first world problem" towards everything instead of stay silence and doing what we have to do and achieve all the shits.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Almost 2 months

Yes, it's almost 2 months since I'm joining the new office. But I still don't get the feeling. It's like I'm already stepping my leg to another place, you know what I mean. I've also got some interview invitations in hoping I can join another new office where (also hoping) I can get better place, and could learn more better than recent place.

Well, I tried to adapt more or blend in with the situation there. But still. Nothing I can do. It just doesn't suit me. I need to go.

God, please guide me.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Good idea comes from good life

So few days ago, I had a-tiptoe-interview in some advertising agency. Yes, this is continuation from that "nice try" post. It was my second time to go to that place, since actually I almost get hired by this office back then. Too bad I canceled it, and apparently since I'm joining this new office, I feel like "fuck, I think I've made a wrong decision. I regret that".

In short, thanks to that "nice try" they willing to interview me again. Thank god. And this time I've met another user. Back then they came with two users. But this time, only a guy who interviewed me. Look younger (basically he's 3-4 year older than me) but he has cool personalities. And we have one and a half hour of conversation instead of having an interview.

So, during the convos, he's talking about one thing that stuck in my head till now. What did he said?

"Good idea comes from good life". Whoa, superwise. Then he explains about a creative worker who should have life outside the office to bring a balance with his work life, rather than become a robot and keep working till dead.

And suddenly, a second after he said that phrase, I start to considering about "Am I have enough good life so far?" You know, a good life like having a conversation with real friend, real world in a random warung Indomie. Or do things that become your passion or hobby. Or go to random place with your loved ones.

I don't know, his statement is like hitting my head so hard. It feels like it says "Hey, look at the mirror, take a look at your face. So dark and gloomy. Go somewhere lha."

Yeah maybe he was right, good idea comes from good life.

Friday, August 11, 2017

Nice Try 2.0

Well, basically this is the continuation from my last blog, where I'm still trapped in a situation that makes me feel discontent with my new office. I already made friends there, kinda have a quite good relationship, and yeah, I think they can accept my jokes. Then I can conclude that I finally got y approval there. Congrats. 

That's why recently I'm doing a "nice try". It's a phrase where Indonesian, usually Jakarta millennials, consider it as an attempt or effort to get, achieve, or pursue something. For me, my "nice try" is spreading my cv to several place again. Lol. 

So far, I'm still filtering which place that I would like to send my cv, and I already get two or three interview schedule. Oh my gosh, it's feels awkward, but fuck it. I jut don't want to lie with myself, that so far I just don't get the feel with this new office. (I hope tomorrow can change my mind, but still. For now, fuck it.) Let me do the "nice try". 

Well, let's see next week or next month. Gonna update it. 

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Still can't move on #cantmoveon


Yup, just still can't move on from the old office's environment. In term of what?
In term of get up late. Have a laugh. Long discussion. Talking behind someone's back. FIFA 17. Mobile Legend. More than 12 hours of work but mostly doing nothing. Ideation with some gurus. Swearing to shitty situation. But still, I was enjoying that.

What about now? Boring.
Little discussion with new colleague, but still don't have clear direction about what is my actual role. New boss is very busy, although he's totally nurturing and very nice toward his team. Full of people that actually very different with mine.

Am still figuring what things that makes me feel weird in this new place.

Just read an article that saying about chronicling helps someone to ease their worry. Now I'm trying it. Hopefully I can get the answer as soon as possible.

Anyway, I also had a decision to start to looking for another chance in another place. God, please give me the straight and right path. Amin.

NB: This kind of situation just made me lose my appetite for whole two weeks since I'm joining this office. Hope it reduces some kilos of weight. Cross finger.

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Is this my second of "being institutionalised"?

Well, I don't know what am I supposed to do. The thing is, I feel that I'm being institutionalised again.  Just like what I had long time ago, most likely several months after I graduated from university. So, what I mean for that "institutionalised" word is the condition or situation where I simply just can't move on.

So yeah, I admit it! I can't move on from that goddamn office. Well, I've spent my life for three years there. Recently I've quit from there. Because there's several things that forces me to decide to leave. Now, I already join another (actually on the same field) company, but I don't know why. I feel that something's wrong with this new place.

Well, honestly speaking, they're willing to pay me better. It's like almost double, comparing to my salary before. But I don't know, it doesn't give me the double happiness, you know what I mean. It's gonna be my full month to work at my new office. Yes I'm ready to receive my first "almost double" salary. But still, it just feels not right.

Still struggling to feel comfy on this new place.